Busy!

This is really what I've been up to for the past couple months. Mixing medications, injecting myself, learning how to assemble syringes. It's been a learning process. True, there has been Thanksgiving and Halloween, but fertility medications are super time consuming. I have to wake up at 6 am to get to the dr. (which is 30 min away) and wait to get blood work and internal ultrasounds done every other day. They then call me with the results and any adjustments to make with my medications. My response the first month wasn't that great, but the second month (this was early October) I had two follicles and Tyler's counts were great. So we gave it a great shot. The best we could do. But it didn't work. It's been a few weeks since we found out it didn't work. And I've just been settling in to what that means for our family and how it is going to grow. 

Really over the past few years I have "matured" but in a way I feel like the innocence of trying to conceive has been lost. All my naive notions of having an "oops" baby are gone. Laughing and being trite about how many children we have. Each one is a true miracle. I don't know how they got here to be honest. I used to cry every Sunday about trying to conceive. I don't anymore. All those emotions have been tempered. Which is good! This is a good thing!

Life goes on. It never occurred to me that some people when they can't conceive just say, "Okay, that's fine! Life goes on!" Wow. I am NOT like that. Or at least I wasn't. 

Now we are pursuing Foster Care and Adoption through the state. We have always known this was the plan for our family, we just didn't know when! So onward we go. I am not a quitter! No matter how hard it is!